A Modern Day Miss Clara

We are currently doing a special small group series at our church on the movie the “War Room”.  If you haven’t seen it yet, you need to watch it.  It’s a movie about the power of prayer and it’s amazing!

The movie was inspiring, however I think what has changed me the most has been discovering the back story of it all.  In the last couple weeks I had the chance to read an article (read it here) about the real-life Miss Clara (the elderly prayer warrior in the movie) that the movie was based upon.  Her name in every day life was Molly Bruno. 

Molly was a ninety-year old radical prayer warrior.  Prayer was more than an event or a duty for her.  It was a lifestyle.  She took time daily to cultivate a personal relationship with her best friend… Jesus.  Each morning she started off with coffee with Him.  It was a sacred daily appointment she never missed. 

In a video interview(see it here), Molly relays when speaking of her relationship with God that it is as if… “He is waiting for me every morning saying… Molly, where are you?”  She spoke with tenderness of her love for God.  It was evident on her face that they were very close.  She shared boldly for all to hear…“When you have Jesus you have EVERYTHING!”

Molly had more than a morning meeting with Jesus every day.  She walked with Him all day long.  She took Him with her everywhere she went, sought His guidance in all the decisions she made, and listened to His heart for her and others.  This relationship was by no means one-sided.  She beamed when she spoke of Him.  She was head over heels in love with her savior.

God did amazing things in Molly’s life.  Soon others began to notice and they started requesting her to pray for their needs as well.  Even kids at school would send prayer requests home to her through her children.  She definitely was NOT your ordinary mom.

As I watched the video something stirred with in me.  She looked like a typical elderly grandma, but she was far more than that.  Just seeing her and hearing her heart for God broke something in me… it was a longing for MORE.

Molly's Bible & note cards with scriptures written out to meditate on daily.

She had something with God that we all have access to, but few pay the price to experience.  It cost her!  It cost her… time, effort, commitment, sacrifice, and probably even some sleep. I’m sure if we asked her if it was all worth it to her, she would say … “ABSOLUTELY”.

With that in mind, I have a question for you… and even for me.  If we knew we could have an amazing and close relationship with God like Miss Molly… would we be willing to pay the price?  I wonder.  Am I willing to pay the price to know Him MORE?

Choosing to pursue a relationship like this takes hard work.  I’m sure she had to make some changes to her schedule.  She probably re-evaluated her priorities often and even lost a lot of sleep because she got up early or stayed up late.

 

I bet this kind of radical prayer life and relationship with God didn’t happen overnight.  It had to be cultivated… cultivated daily as Miss Molly made choices to move toward God instead of away from Him in all of the decisions she made.

What were the rewards of her sacrifice and commitment?

~God became real to her

~She could hear His voice clearly and confidently

~God answered prayers and she witnessed many miracles

~God used her to reach out to others

~She trusted Him completely

~She was full of faith to believe God for impossible things

~God became her best friend (she loved being with Him)

And the list could go on and on…

When you look at this list, it all sounds good, but what holds us back from really going there with God?  Is it distractions?  Are we content, complacent, or comfortable with where we are?  Are we afraid that God will mess things up if we get too close to Him… maybe even convict us of things we should change? Are we too busy, too stressed, or too lazy?  What is it?  What is keeping us from this amazing, radical, relationship with God?

In the video interview Molly was asked an interesting question… “What would you say to someone who feels like their prayer life is flat or they don’t really know how to pray?  

Her response was simple yet powerful.  She said, “They have no desire.  It’s not a ritual.  They’ve gone away from their first love.  It’s not real to them.” 

 Her advice was this…

“They need to seek the Lord from their heart.  Desire Him and He will answer you.  Say I can’t take this anymore.      

I want YOU!”

Molly passed away before the movie ever hit the theaters, but she got to see the final cut and pray everything through.  She left us with more than a great movie, she left a life changing example for us to follow to know Him better.

I don’t know about you, but I’m ready for a change.  I’m ready to shake things up with God and push forward for MORE.  I know it won’t happen overnight, but I’m willing to begin cultivating the kind of relationship that Miss Clara and Molly Bruno had with Jesus.  I want to leave my boys a legacy of prayer.

Are you willing to pay the price to know Him MORE?  What’s holding YOU back?  When we really think about it, I think in most cases we will find that the only person truly holding us back is ourselves.  Choose today to make a move TOWARD Him and cultivate your relationship with God.  I have a feeling that as you do, your life will be turned upside down in a good way.  I invite you to join me on this journey.

Living to leave a legacy,

Julie

"Just DO Something!"

I feel like I am already starting 2016 a little behind.   The New Year snuck up on me before I even had a chance to catch my breath from Christmas.  I just got the last of the Christmas décor’ put away in the attic this week.  

I haven’t planned my schedule ahead.  I haven’t really set any goals.  I’m pretty much just trying to stay afloat.  I’ve coasted into the New Year on fumes, running on empty.  Sad but true.

I’ve had a lingering cold that won’t seem to let go of me for some reason.  My energy has been low which has stolen my passion to be productive.   It’s been very frustrating to say the least.

Colds are a common occurrence for most people during the winter months, but for me it can be very crippling.   When you have an autoimmune disease even the most harmless of colds can drag on forever draining your energy and weakening your already compromised immune system even more.

I have goals and plans and high aspirations for the New Year, I just haven’t had the chance to really mull over them.  I generally try to assimilate them in some fashion on paper (to motivate myself to dream big and aim to be more this year with God’s help), but this year is different.

 

A few years back I heard of people choosing a simple word to focus on for the year.  This word seemingly helped them to better keep their attention on their overall goal.  Some have chosen words like… “rest”, “accountability”, “discipline”, “faith”, and the like. 

The last couple years I have chosen “a” word as well and it really helped me to focus on where I wanted to be.  This year I have chosen two words.

-FORWARD PROGRESS-

This is important to me because this past year I have felt like I have taken one step forward and two steps back all year long as a result of my health.  It has been very frustrating.  God has placed some big dreams on my heart that I have been chipping away at for years and it’s time for them to finally be completed. 

“Forward Progress” to me means to keep moving forward toward where God wants me to be even if it is one step at a time.  If I could shout out loud daily to motivate myself (and not feel weird about it) I would probably say…”Just DO Something!” 

Start by… writing one paragraph in the book you are trying to finish.  Send one note of encouragement to that person God put on your heart.  Have one family night a month.  Set up one meeting to mentor that young lady.  Make one sit down meal this week.  Schedule one date night with your husband this month.  Write one blog post for now.  Read one chapter in that book you want to finish.  “Just DO Something!”

If I could add verses to my words for the year, I think this would be it.  I love how the Message version says it…

“I’m not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don’t get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I’ve got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I’m off and running, and I’m not turning back.”

Philippians 3:12-14 (MSG)

I am determined to keep moving FORWARD this year even if it is by taking “baby steps”.  FORWARD PROGRESS is my goal. 

Take a moment and think… What is the “something” that you need to be doing this year?  What is holding you back friend?  Please take this as my personal invitation to join me on this journey of moving forward.  I dare you to step out and “Just DO Something” and let God do the rest!  Are you ready to make 2016 amazing?  Let’s do this! 

Living to leave a legacy,

Julie 

Our Special Family Tradition

It’s hard to believe it’s already Christmas Eve.  Where did the time go?  It feels like my boys just started school yesterday.  I so wish we could freeze time until I can catch up with it all.  I don’t know about you, but for some reason this Christmas season has felt a little different for me. 

Maybe the busyness of our lives is the real culprit here.  We’ve done a lot of running our boys here and there lately.  We are running them for school with sports, along with various activities at church, not to mention time with friends.  Some days it has taken BOTH of us running to get each kid where they needed to be when.  I don’t know how single parents swing it!  They must be superheroes!

This year because of all of the craziness, I decided to cut a few things from our Christmas ‘to do’ list.  We have skipped some normal traditions in an effort to slow down our pace and savor the season.  BUT there is one tradition we will never skip! 

Every year on Christmas Eve ever since the boys were little we have read them a special Christmas story.  It’s found in a special book I got years ago called… “Mary’s Treasure Box”. 

A few years back I attempted to buy another copy (to save back so both boys would have a special book to read to their families) and I was surprised at what I found.  Every where I looked online the prices were over $100 for just ONE book!  What on earth!  I couldn’t believe it!  I guess at that point they were out of print or something. 

At the time I got mine, I was working at a Christian Bookstore where with my employee discount it probably cost me a whole $2 new.  Today I looked up the price and in some places it is a lot cheaper.  In case you want to snag this hidden treasure for your family, I have attached a link for you to check out Here.

What makes this book so special, you might ask?  Well, simply put it shares the story of Jesus’ birth and life from a mom’s perspective.  It’s Mary’s version of the story as she shares it with her granddaughter.  In an effort to bring it all to life for her grandchild, she creatively displays a variety of items stored in her treasure box.  In there she finds… straw, a cloth, a flute, gold, frankincense, and even myrrh.  Each item saved back represents a special part of the story. 

Over the years, we have created a treasure box of our own as well, that we open each Christmas!  In it we have placed many of the items shared from the story.  As we read it each year, we pull out the items one by one and pass them around for everyone to inspect.  Seeing each of them personally has helped make it real for our boys.  Tonight or tomorrow… we will read the story again. 

This book is actually based on a true story if you haven’t figured it out yet.  It’s a story of unconditional love, amazing grace, and enormous sacrifice.   It’s a story that is very personal to me.  Recognizing the reality of God’s overwhelming love for ME has transformed my life. 

Seeing the story in light of Mary’s perspective has challenged me even more since having children.  I can’t even imagine how she might have felt.  Her first child was a miracle… an unexpected blessing.  I imagine she held on to Him tightly not wanting Him to ever grow up… savoring each and every moment recording them forever in her mind.  He was different and deep down she knew it.   

Luke 2:19 says…

“…but Mary kept all these things in her heart and thought about them often.” (NLT)

Whether she liked it or not, she would have to let Him go at an early age.  He wasn’t truly hers to keep.  He was on loan.  Hmm… this really hits home with me. 

My boys are on loan from God too.  They are His!  He has a plan and a purpose for their lives… and it’s going to be amazing!  My job isn’t to shelter them and hold them tight so they never grow up.  It’s to help them connect with God personally so they can discover what He has in mind for their lives.

I’m sure Mary could see the evidence of God’s hand on her son’s life.  He was mature beyond his years at a very young age.  People followed Him.  God blessed Him in everything He did.  She knew.  She had to hold on to Him loosely.  Some day He needed to be free to live out God’s calling on His life.  I imagine just thinking about it brought knots to her stomach.

I struggle with this reality as well.  My boys are growing up way too fast.  Both are in High School now and time is flying by.  I know it will only be a short time and they will be out in the world doing what God has called them to do.  Knots fill my stomach as I think about it.  Are they ready?  Have we prepared them for what is ahead?  Do they know Him well enough to follow His leading?  Parenting involves a lot of faith… trusting God with our treasures.

There was a time when I grieved the fact that my kids were growing up.  I constantly looked at pictures of younger years missing the days.  But, now it’s different.   I know the day is coming.  Growing up is inevitable… boo! 

For that reason, I want to savor the present moments I have with them.  I don’t want to miss out on the amazing young men they are becoming.  I want to enjoy every minute I have left with them now.

Mary’s life was changed the moment she encountered this precious baby boy and for the better! 

It’s Christmas time and while many are scurrying around lost in the hustle and bustle of the material side of it all.  I challenge you to remember the real reason for the season.  Read the story (Here) and allow the birth, life, and death of a special baby born many years ago impact your holiday season today. 

I pray this Christmas will be different for you.  May God’s presence surround you, His love overwhelm you, and His peace that passes all understanding consume you.  He loves you dearly friend and He gave His very best gift to you the day Jesus was born… a second chance at experiencing true “life”.

Luke 2:11 says…

“The Savior—yes, the Messiah, the Lord—has been born today in Bethlehem, the city of David!   And you will recognize him by this sign: You will find a baby wrapped snugly in strips of cloth, lying in a manger.” (NLT)

Isaiah 9:6 says…

“For a child is born to us, a son is given to us.  The government will rest on his shoulders.  And he will be called:  Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.” (NLT)

  

God turned my world upside down for good the day I met Him and I have never been the same.  I challenge you to give Him a chance if you haven’t already.  You won't regret it!  I promise.  I am available if you would like to talk more about this or have questions.  Merry Christmas friends!

Living to leave a legacy,

Julie 

How to BLESS the Homebound

(From someone who has been there and knows…)

The homebound have been on my heart recently.  It could be because I’ve been a “Shut-In” several times in my life.  I’m not talking about being shut in for the weekend with a cold or for a week with the flu.  It’s a permanent kind of shut-in experience… a chronic illness, extensive rehabilitation, disability, or maybe recovery from an accident to name a few. 

Sometimes the shut-in person isn’t sick at all… they are actually caregivers of the sick.  Regardless of the circumstances, being bound or “stuck” in your home for an undetermined amount of time can be really frustrating.  Believe me, I know.

My shut-in experience was due to an autoimmune disease.  It came on unexpectedly and we weren’t prepared for it.  I had two little ones to care for ages 5 and 6.  They needed me!  When I first got sick, it took the doctor THREE months to diagnose my condition.  I was bedridden for the majority of that time.

My husband carried a lot of the weight during that season… financially, emotionally, physically, and spiritually.   He worked two jobs to take care of us financially because I had to quit my job when I got sick.  He filled the role of mom and dad caring for the boys.  He became the housekeeper, cook, and chauffeur along with many other roles.  We were a house and a family in great need. 

Even though we didn’t vocalize our needs, God knew and at times He would let others know so they could bless us.  We received food, help with the kids, help with cleaning the house, and loads of prayer.

When you are stuck at home you can begin to feel all alone, weary, and at times even hopeless.  I’m not just talking about those that are sick, but the caregivers too.   They juggle so much to keep their loved ones going and run on empty often.

Having been a “Shut-In” or home bound person myself, I thought it might be helpful to share some tips on how to bless someone who may be home sick (and even the caregiver too). 

REMEMBER:

Many of the homebound and caregivers feel forgotten… by friends, family, and by God.  Take time to check on them.  Call, send a card, text, or message them.  In some small way let them know you are thinking of them and praying.

I know at times in the past when I was sick for extended periods of time, I began to feel hopeless, a burden, alone, and forgotten.  Depression comes quickly and easily for those who feel trapped.  Your words of encouragement sent at just the right time can do more than you could ever imagine.  Let God prompt you to who you need to encourage and what and what you need to do to bless them.  You will be amazed at what God will do as you are obedient to His leading.

Here are some simple Text, Email, or Messaging ideas you could send:

-Hey friend.  You were on my mind today, how are you doing?

-I was thinking of you today.  Have an amazing day today!  You are in my prayers.

-You are missed and loved friend.  I just wanted to let you know.

-I’m praying for you friend.  I pray all is well with you today.

-Have an incredible day friend!  You are in my prayers.

-Do you have anything I can be praying for you about today?

-I’m praying for you today friend.  God is able.

VISIT:

Take the time to visit those homebound if you have the opportunity.  Many rarely leave their homes, so it is a treat when someone comes to see them.  Even though most don’t feel up to it or at their best, it still boosts their spirits to have visitors.  Here are some things to think about as you plan your visit:

-Call ahead (to see when a good time to visit might be with them or their caregiver).  For most that are sick, the best time seems to be in the afternoon or early evening.  Mornings are rough for most.

-Smaller is better.   Just one visitor can be overwhelming for the sick.  Keep your numbers small when you visit. 

1-2 people.  Only bring kids if they are well-behaved and old enough to understand what you are doing.  You want your visit to be encouraging not a stressful time.

-Less is more.  Don’t stay long when you visit.  Many homebound wear out quickly.  They may feel uncomfortable about their appearance and their home, but they will be glad you came.  For best results stay no longer than 30 minutes.  Just you taking the time out of your schedule to come see them will make their day.

-Bring a gift.  Bring something to make them feel special.  They don’t get out much so anything you might bring them is a special treat.  Here are some ideas: 

Something to entertain them:  Books (Chicken soup books are great, magazines, word searches, or cross words.  Find out what they like.)  Don’t forget favorite music or movies.

Something to make them smile: Flowers (check allergies), balloons, pictures to keep, cards or drawings from kids, or maybe their favorite sweet treat (a favorite candy bar… if it is allowed with their diet).

Something to fill their tummy:  It’s always a blessing when someone brings a meal or two to help out.  The same ole’ same ole’ stuff gets old.  Besides that, when a meal is brought the caregiver gets a break from cooking.  Two people are blessed in this instance.  J

-Keep it short and sweet.   What should you talk about when visiting?  I know it can be awkward when visiting someone who is sick, but it is such a blessing to them.  

Here are some discussion tips for you:

-Greet them with a gift

-Ask them how they are doing today

-Small talk (ideas:  weather, what you did today, keep it simple… no politics)

-Share with them how you’ve missed them and you’ve been praying for them

-Ask them if there is anything you can pray specifically with them about today

-Ask if you can pray now with them (Keep it short and sweet.  Don’t touch them when praying unless you feel led by God and you have asked for their permission.)

-Discern additional needs.  Look for other ways you can come back to bless them.  They won’t always come out and tell you what they need so you might have to get creative in discovering it.  In some cases you may need to ask further questions to discern (with God’s help) how to best bless them in the future.

Here are some questions you could ask…

           

*What could I/we do to help you out today to lift some weight off of you?

(Discern ways to help today)

*Is there anything we could come back later to help you with?

(Discern ways to help later)

*What seems to frustrate you the most lately?

(Discern what they wish they could do)

*When it comes to household responsibilities, what is MOST important to you?

(Discern areas of greatest needs to them)

*What has been weighing on you (or do you worry about …) the MOST lately?

(Discern how you can help lift the weight and know how best to pray)

*What can we continue to pray with you about?

(Discern their fears, burdens, and worries)

PRAY:

I remember when I was sick having lots of visitors.  At times, I couldn’t talk (or be understood), but I was still very aware.  People came to help watch my kids, make or bring meals, clean my house, run my kids to practices, and the like.  It all touched me so deeply. 

I remember two particular friends coming over to make a meal for my family and do some household chores.  I struggled to speak during this time, so I just sat there silently watching tears rolling down my face.  I couldn’t stop crying.  I cried because I couldn’t do anything to take care of my family by myself and I cried because I felt so blessed by my friends stepping up to help carry the weight for me.  I had mixed emotions in that moment.  I felt so helpless, yet so overwhelmed with love.

During these difficult seasons, people also prayed with me.  They prayed with me over the phone, emailed and messaged prayers, sent prayer cloths home with my husband (that people prayed over and anointed in my place), and came in person.  I remember one particular person went way out of their way home from a business trip to drop by out of the blue to anoint and pray for me.  I felt so honored.

“The prayers of others during this time gave me the strength I needed

to keep pushing forward when I didn’t have the energy to pray for myself.”

I felt unkempt and embarrassed at the way I looked, how I was dressed, and what my surroundings looked like, but each visitor that came still blessed me.  It blessed me that they cared enough to come, send food, write cards, or lend a hand to make our lives easier and our burdens lighter.  It overwhelmed me.  I sensed God’s presence as they prayed, served, loved, encouraged, and gave generously to my family.

I hope this holiday season you will take the time to remember someone who is sick or homebound.  I challenge you to go beyond just remembering to encouraging them.   Make time to visit, send a card, text, or call, but MOST of all pray.  They need you friends.  Be HOPE for the hopeless this Christmas.  You may never know the impact you could make by just remembering them today.

May God bless you today as you pray and discern WHO you may need to encourage this holiday season.

Living to leave a legacy,

Julie

He’s a RUNNER, but aren’t we all?

I didn’t even know it was in him until he ran his first race.  Granted he ran full speed the whole time (not realizing he was supposed to pace himself) and nearly passed out by the end.   He has only gotten better as time has gone by.  He has practiced, trained, and even came up with a strategy to be able to run stronger and he has.

My eldest son decided at the last minute (a few days before school started) that he wanted to try Cross Country out this year.  Hmmm… we never thought of him as a long distance runner.  It is a sport that he can carry with him all of his life if he likes it.  What could it hurt?  We agreed whole-heartedly to let him try it out and rallied behind him in support.

This was all new for us.  All we have ever done sports-wise as a family has been… soccer, football, baseball, and basketball… mostly basketball since the boys have gotten older.  We were totally clueless as to how to support our son at his first event.  I gained insights from a Cross Country friend when we first arrived so my husband and I wouldn’t stand out quite as much as newbies (Thanks Sherri!).  I’m not sure if it helped camouflage us or not.

These races or meets were like nothing we had ever been to before.  From the students stretching ahead of the run, to the lining up, and shooting of the gun, we were definitely out of our element.  Parents and students swarmed at each meet in no particular order.  

There were clumps of people everywhere.  If one thought they could just show up and go with the flow to see what to do, they would be out of luck.  Everyone did their own thing to support their kid and each thing was unique.

 

After a few meets we finally discovered our cheerleading groove.  We came early to each meet to: 1. Set up lawn chairs to sit in during the down time by the team tent and 2.  Spend some quality time encouraging our son before the race began.  We also had him share with us the race route so we knew where to stand when to cheer him on to the end.

 

Once the race began our job (per our son’s request) was to count which number he was from the front and yell it out as he passed by.  If we were privy to seeing a timer (which wasn’t at every meet) we were supposed to shout out his time.  We moved several times throughout the race to see him pass by us.  We whooped and hollered as he ran by expecting it would make him run all the faster.

 

Parents moved all around seemingly knowing just where to stand in order to see their child pass by.  We watched and followed their lead.  I think the MOST amazing part of the whole race was watching them run across the finish line.  

Watching those kids push through to the end running their hearts out amazed me.  From the fastest runner to the slowest, they CHOSE to do this sport and they finished strong.  Wow… that speaks volumes to me!

 

As the racers poured in, one by one, the cheering seemed to only increase.  People didn’t just cheer for their own child in this race, they cheered for every child that attempted to finish no matter what team they were on.  It was powerful! 

 

I was especially impressed by the attitudes of the students from other teams. After one of my son’s first race’s several guys from other teams kept coming up to my son telling him he did a great job.  I couldn’t figure out how he knew them so I asked him.  He said, “Mom, they are just encouraging me.  This sport is different than the others I have done before.”  Wow!  It’s a community of encouragers all around.

 

I didn’t know if my son would stick with this sport or not, but he has.  I’m so proud of him.  It’s hard work, but he’s good at it.  It seems to come natural for him.

 

He’s a runner!  I think he’s hooked for life!

 

Running is deep, down in him, but now that I think about it running is in all of us... isn’t it?  I’m not into the sport of running, but oh do I want to run when I face difficulties, struggles, and hardship.  I feel like running when conflict arises and relationships waver.  I am a runner.  I admit it.  I guess running isn’t all bad in life, as long as we are running in the right direction.

 

I have discovered through personal experience that I have two options when it comes to running.  When hard times come and they will, I can either run TO God, or AWAY from Him. 

 

When we choose to run to God “in the midst of” our struggles, we have the opportunity to experience His peace that passes all understanding.  The pain may still be there, the stress still overwhelming, and the burdens great, but we don’t have to do this alone.  God promises to walk with us. 

 

God will help carry our burdens.  He will diffuse our stress with His presence, and comfort us in our moments of grief and pain.  He is as close as the mention of His name.  I know our natural tendency is to run away from our problems, but why not choose a different way next time… take your problems and run TO God.  You might be surprised at the outcome.

The one thing people long for MOST when they are hurting is peace.  Why would we knowingly choose to run away from this?  In choosing to run away from God instead of to Him, we are in essence choosing to carry our burdens alone.  The weight is heavier, the pain more severe, and that sick uneasy feeling in our stomach is never ending.  But, why?   It just doesn’t make sense to me.

 

I guess I’ve had many opportunities to run AWAY from God now that I think about it.  I just didn’t take them.   Like many others, I too, have faced those moments where I could have chosen to get “angry at the world” or take it all out on God.  I could have given up on life, went wild and rebellious, or ran away from it all, but I didn’t.  I haven’t.   

 

I guess some where along my journey I decided to run to God in

a moment of despair and He met me there.  It changed me! 

I don’t know how to run anywhere else.

 

 

Some of those life-changing moments of decision are still stamped so vividly in my mind.  I remember struggling personally as a pre-teen and contemplating taking my own life.  In that moment of decision, I felt God’s presence enter my bedroom.  I was overwhelmed by His love and felt His arms wrapping around me tightly.  I was loved.  I was not alone.  I could do this… with His help.

I remember being excited about expecting our first child after five years of marriage.  Our hearts were all wrapped up in this unborn bundle of joy.  We were full of hopes and dreams for the future.  We were heart broken to find out just after four months that I had miscarried and lost the baby.  The grief was real and heavy upon our hearts. 

All I knew to do was to run to God.  I prayed for strength and peace “in the midst of” my struggle.  The peace was almost immediate.  I couldn’t imagine how any body else in my same situation (with out God) could make it through this.  The loss was almost unbearable.

I have faced a lot of ups and downs with my health.  I have suffered with an autoimmune disease for the past ten years now.  It’s an autoimmune disease that weakens my muscles… all muscles when it’s out of control.  It has gone in and out of remission.   When it’s bad, it’s really bad. 

When I first got sick, it took the doctor three months to diagnose it.  I was bedridden most of that time.  My kids were just 5 & 6 years old at the time.  Through out my sickness I’ve had various flare ups where old symptoms would come back again strong for awhile.  During one bad flare up I was bedridden for almost a year.  It was horrible. 

I have had every opportunity imaginable with all of this sickness to blame God, doubt Him, and walk away, but I didn’t.  I haven't.  Regardless of whether I will ever be healed from my calamity or not, I trust Him!  He has always proved to be faithful to me in the past, so I am confident that some how in some way God will work all this out for good.

I’m a runner!  I admit it.  But… the place I choose to run... in good times and bad is right into God’s arms.  There is no other place I would rather be.

  

“Come near to God, and God will come near to you…” 

James 4:8

 

The next time you are hurting, broken, or struggling to find your way.  I challenge you to choose a different direction to run.  Run to Him!  You won’t be disappointed!  I promise!

 

Living to leave a legacy,

Julie