“I’m Speechless… God did it!”

I can’t believe it, there are no words, but I have to share… Today marks 41 days since God healed me from an autoimmune disease I have suffered with for 19 years!!!   I’m still trying to process it all.  I’m speechless!  I always hoped it would happen, but didn’t think it would… and now I don’t even know what to think.  God totally surprised me!  I’m both overwhelmed with emotion and excited all at once.  Wow God!!!

Thank you, thank you, thank you to all that have interceded and lifted me up faithfully in prayer.  Your prayers made a huge difference in all seasons of my journey!  You are my spiritual tribe of rock stars!!!  I love and appreciate you!!!

DISCLAIMER:  

For all those I share my story with, I add this extra disclaimer…

“Please reconsider Jesus and where you have placed Him in your life.  He is alive and has done amazing things in my life and I know He wants to do incredible things in your life too!”

Here is my story….

It happened at a Friday night service we had at my church.  I was running late, but found a seat near the front.  I put my stuff down and stepped into the aisle way to give God all my attention in worship, as we sang songs of praise to Him.  I didn’t want any distractions.  That night was a prayer and worship night.  I had challenged the small group I taught on Wednesday night to do something new that night, to shake things up with their relationship with God.  It could be sitting in a new place, moving away from everyone else during the worship time (to focus more on God), or simply singing out loud to the songs (when normally they never did).

I challenged them to seek a HEART knowledge of God.  Many are content with just a HEAD knowledge of God.  They know all about God, but they don’t really know Him in an “up close and personal” way.  I encouraged them to seek “God Moments” that can become Landmarks of Faith on their journey with Him… special moments with God to look back on and know (beyond a shadow of a doubt) that He is real!!!

I decided that I needed to lead the way and take my own advice to shake things up.  Before I knew it, I was on the front row, standing and worshiping, with both hands raised in surrender.   It wasn’t long, until I fell down on my knees seeking Him passionately in prayer.  

I don’t know what song we were singing, but I felt very broken as I was pouring my heart out to God.  I was very frustrated.  I had been sick all week long. When I was finally able to see the doctor, he shared suspicions of it being Diverticulitis (the condition that put me in the hospital for 49 days in 2022).  “No… Not this again!”  I thought.  “It just couldn’t be that!”

I was sharing with God all of my frustration in its rawest sense.  I was so tired of all of this.  I knew that God had more for me than sitting at home half the day…  run down, sick, icing my body, hoping to have enough energy to do things and make it through the day.  I knew He had better for me!  I was angry at all the things I had been dealing with;  I was angry with the symptoms and side effects, not my God.  As a result, I started rebuking all sickness in my body (specifically) that I have dealt with lately and told it to go in Jesus name.  I was more broken then I have ever been.

As I sat in the quiet of my emotions, I felt God speak something radical to me.  It was a hard thing.  I questioned it over and over, but He made it very clear to me that it was Him that said it.  What was it?  I feel like He said, “Stop taking your medicine… all of it!”  

My reaction was… “What?  Did I hear that right?”  God wanted me to stop everything I was taking, cold turkey!  “But, I take a lot of medicine and some of them are very necessary to prevent Myasthenia Gravis from flaring up again.”  It was currently under control and had been for the last year. I sat there on the floor, on my knees reviewing the ramifications of what could happen to my body, if I obeyed God.  

I just wasn’t sure.  I felt like God kept confirming over and over to me, that I don’t have to doubt His voice. I learned to hear it clearly over the summer (in my pursuit of Him) and have obeyed His leading confidently.  He kept saying over and over to me, “You know my voice, I am the one asking you to do this.”  “Would you choose to do this on your own?”  I felt like He said… “You trust Me in all other areas of your life, why not this one?  Why can you believe this for others, but not for yourself?”

The Proverbs 3:5-6 passage kept playing in my mind over and over… “Trust Me and don’t lean on your own understanding.  I will lead the way and see you through.”  I just kept saying,  “This is hard, God.”  “You are asking me to do a HARD thing.”  I felt like His response was… “Wasn’t I there, when you did hard things over the summer?  Didn’t I see you through it and impact lives in powerful ways, as a result of your obedience?  Do you trust Me?  You should know by now that I wouldn’t ask you to do something hard, if I didn’t have a purpose for it.”

I reluctantly surrendered and said,  “Okay, but this is going to be hard.”  As I looked up from the floor (trying to process everything), I saw an amazing woman of God in front of me on the platform.  She had felt like God wanted her to stop all of her medicine, the year before (at our Sisterhood Weekend), and it totally changed her life!  If she could do it, I could do it too!  I asked her to pray for me before I left that night and the rest is history.

I am currently on Day 41.  I can’t say that it has been easy, but God has been SO faithful.  For those that don’t know, I’ve struggled with an autoimmune disease called Myasthenia Gravis for 19 years and have taken 18 + medications to manage it.  The best way to explain this disease is that it is similar to Multiple Sclerosis, in the sense that it affects the muscles and weakens them… however it doesn’t get progressively worse.  It causes flare ups, like Fibromyalgia might, where the muscle weakness could get bad for a while and then all of the sudden improve. There have been lots of extremes with this disease and unpredictability.  There have been good seasons and bad.  At its worst I was bedridden for a year struggling to swallow water, eat solid food, or even take care of myself; while at its best (in remission) I was able to complete the Indianapolis Mini Marathon 5k walk!

To say it has been frustrating dealing with this, is an understatement.  The medications that I have taken to just manage my life (helping it be as seemingly normal as possible), have caused side effects requiring more medication to fix things.  Each medication has come with its own bucket of issues.  I am currently working through getting 19 years of toxic medicine out of my body and it’s not fun.

It’s a process, but I know God has healed me!  
Without a doubt, I know that NOT taking some of the medication (that I have taken for the past 19 years), would have placed me in the hospital by Day 7 (or maybe sooner).  I would have started to get really weak, my original symptoms would have surfaced making it difficult to lift my head, my eyes would have started drooping, that would have led to double vision, trouble swallowing, slurred speech and the like…

BUT GOD had something different in mind.  I’m not sure why God healed me now, but I’m SO thankful He did!!  That is not all of the story, but it’s the highlighted, abbreviated version.  I’m currently working on finishing a book I’ve been writing for nearly 12 years.  It’s a Bible Study on the life of Joseph (the one thrown into a pit).  It draws parallels from my own life and now boy do I have an incredible ending for it! 

The rest of my healing story (in detail) will be in my book. I’m hoping to get it finished by Jan. 1st.  It will be entitled…“Where Messy Faith Meets a Mighty God- Nothing is Wasted.” God has been SO faithful during all seasons of my life.  I hope you will check out the book when it comes available.

I’m not sure where you are on your faith journey, but one thing I know beyond a shadow of doubt, is that God is real.  He loves us and cares about the details of our lives.  Please reconsider Jesus and where you have placed Him in your life.  He is worth all your surrender, friends.  A life completely surrendered to Him is life changing!  I’m still processing everything

(as I said before), but would be happy to chat with you if you have any questions about my faith journey or yours.  I love you all!

Newly healed and forever thankful!!!

Julie

TIPS ON HOW TO MINISTER TO THE SICK

I know it's been a long time since I've written on this blog... almost 2 1/2 years to be exact. A lot has happened since then to keep me from writing. Well there was COVID and quarantines, my dad got sick and passed away, I got COVID twice, we bought a new house, I struggled with several episodes of diverticulitis requiring 4 different hospital stays, and eventually had surgery to remove the damaged parts of my colon. An error occurred during the surgery which disconnected my bladder from my kidney. As a result I will need a final surgery to repair it. That is coming in the next couple weeks. I think that brings us up to the present. LOL.

With my recent hospital stay being 15 days (in a lot of pain) and about 45 days in the hospital this year so far, I thought I would share some insights I've gained on how to minister to the sick. Not only have I been sick a lot over the years, but I know a lot of people who struggle with their health and even some that are homebound.

Side note: For those who followed the online journey of my hospital stay recently. Thank you for the prayers. They were felt and made a huge difference. I also want you to know that God was faithful and very present in the midst of all of my suffering. He did unexpected miracles. I will share more about that at a later time.

I thought I would share some helpful tips that may help as you minister to your friends or loved ones. This is geared toward the church going crowd, but can be adapted to fit anyone.   If you are one of my friend’s who struggles with being homebound or have ongoing health issues, please add anything else that I may have missed or that would be helpful in the comments below.

TIP #1:  REACH OUT PERSONALLY

Sick people can feel pretty lonely at times.  Even though their health is up and down most of the time, they have quiet moments in between to think, to dwell on things, and wonder if anyone cares that they aren’t around or even misses them.  Depression lurks in the shadows waiting to pounce on their hearts.  That’s why it is so important to reach out when someone you know and love is sick.  I know it may feel awkward or uncomfortable, but hopefully some of the things I share below will help you push past that to love them better.

3 WAYS TO REACH OUT:

           MESSAGE THEM

(Whether it be a text or direct message on social media)

Send a text or message of encouragement to them.  Keep it short and sweet.  “Thinking of you today”, “Praying for you”, “Love and miss you”, etc… or you could simply send them an encouraging picture or GIF.   When your loved one is in the hospital or extremely sick, sending written out prayers to them via text or direct message can be very impactful.  It helps them feel your prayers even more.

Note:  Don’t send messages to them saying… “sending good vibes or happy thoughts”.  Those feel like empty words to sick people.  They need to know you are really praying for them.  Prayer makes all the difference!

Also, don’t leave voicemail messages.  Sick people don’t always have the opportunity to listen to messages or even call people back.  In most cases, they can respond to a text or direct message a lot easier.  When I was in the hospital, I responded to texts as I was able.  If I was unable to do so, at times my husband would read them to me and respond for me.  I remember when my dad was in the hospital (in a semi-conscious state before he passed away), that I read all the Facebook messages that people sent to him out loud for him to hear one by one.  I could tell he was listening and it really blessed him.  The written word shared (from the heart) brings healing to those that are sick.

SEND A CARD

Send those that are sick cards periodically to let them know you miss them, you are praying for them, and they are loved.  I encourage you to don’t just sign your name to the card, write them a little note letting them know you are thinking of them and praying for them.  It’s a visual reminder to them that people love them and really do care.

SEND A GIFT

If you feel led to do so, send a gift.  Anything that will bring a little sunshine to their day and room.  Life gets dreary when you are stuck in the same place all the time.  Flowers, balloons, candy, etc… are great gifts.  They help change the atmosphere for a moment and can bring a smile to the faces of those that are sick.

TIP #2:  CONNECT WITH THE FAMILY

Stay informed.  Check in with the family to see how things are going with the one that is sick and with their family members.  Sickness takes a toll on everyone.   

Listen, watch, and ask if they have any needs you could help meet.  In most cases they are weary. They just need some of the weight lifted for a while, so they can catch their breath and truly rest.  They generally don’t know their needs, until you suggest something.  Think of things like bringing food or planning a food train, maybe they need a dog sitter, lawn care, or rides to doctor appointments, etc…   Bless them as God leads you.

TIP #3: CARE BEYOND THE CRISIS

After you’ve prayed, sent cards, messages, and gifts, you might consider taking it a step further.  Make a call or visit.  Be sure you check with the family first to see if it would be a good idea.  Timing is important.  When it comes to visits, never just show up.  Set up a time that would be best for the family and don’t go there empty handed.  Bring something with you to give to them.  It makes things less awkward when you arrive.  Bring a card, food, gift, flowers, etc…  Something to bring some more sunshine to their day.  

VISITS:

Don’t stay long for your visit (20 minutes is a good goal, if you need a time limit).  Stay just long enough to talk to them for a few minutes to see how they are doing and let them know you are praying for them.  Be sure to ask them how you can be praying more specifically for them.  If you get a chance, try to pray for them personally before you leave.

Good small talk questions to ask when you are there:

Is today a good day for you health-wise?

           How can I be praying more specifically for you?

           Is there anything I can help you with?

Would you like me to come over and sit with you some time (watch tv, talk, etc…)?

Note:  Don’t get too personal with your questions.  They may not feel comfortable sharing some things with others.

Random small talk topic ideas to discuss:

Weather- homebound and hospital bound patients don’t see outside very much.  Sometimes sharing how the week has been weather-wise is an easy topic to discuss.

Food- ask what meal they like at the hospital or what favorite meals they like at home.  If they are unable to eat solid food at all, avoid this subject altogether.

Events- share about recent events you’ve been a part of that they may have missed.  It gives them a chance to ask you questions and feel like they are a part in some small way.

TV- what they are watching on tv or favorite series they follow are always good topics.  It lightens the mood and gives them something fun to talk about.

Your life- share what’s going on in your life.  When the spotlight is off of them and on to you, it can make them feel more at ease.  Share new things going on in your life… things you’ve done, places you’ve gone or plan to go to, your work, family, share stories, etc…

CALLS:

Calls are actually harder I think to do than visits, because you can’t actually see them in person.  It can feel more awkward at times.  If you decide to call, keep it very short.  Just let them know you’ve been praying for them and see if there is anything specific you can be praying with them about.  Pray personally with them if you get the chance.  Since you can’t really see how they are doing, it’s harder to carry on small talk.  At most, you may be able to ask them if they have anything you can help them with or have any current needs.

TIP #4:  FIND WAYS TO INCLUDE THEM

Everyone wants to feel useful and like they have purpose.  Look for ways to give those you know who are sick opportunities to be helpful.  Find ways to make them a part of what is happening in some small way.  I have a friend that was sick (and as a result homebound) who found purpose in a creative way.  Since she couldn’t go to church in person and had to watch online, her church asked her to be a host for one of the online services.  Her job was to welcome everyone, ask for prayer needs, and pray with people as God led her.  What a blessing she was to all that attended with her online.  The point is, look for ways to help give those that are sick value and purpose.  Find a way to help them feel like they belong and have a place to serve. One way you could do this is by inviting them to help you do something that you could do yourself. Including them will help them feel a part in a small way, your company will encourage them, and the whole thing will give them purpose.

I hope in some small way that all of this is helpful for those of you who have friends and loved ones that are sick. I know you love them. These simple tips are meant to help you know how to love them better while they are sick. Thank you friends and family for loving me so well while I have been sick. I love and appreciate each and every one of you.

Living to leave a legacy,

Julie

COVID-19: LOCKDOWN GUIDE

*HOW TO MANAGE MY TIME

& EMOTIONS* 

(Portions taken from an article written by Aarti Gupta, PsyD at the Anxiety and Depression Association of America)

Who would have ever thought when this year began that we would be facing a global pandemic; let alone one that would shut down the whole world in a matter of weeks.  This is unbelievable!  We are making history, friends.  Some day we will be able to tell generations from now that we survived the great Covid-19 pandemic of 2020 and what a story that will be!

I know it has been hard, to say the least.  Being isolated under a mandatory quarantine can stir up a variety of unwelcome emotions.  You may feel alone, anxious, stir-crazy, lost, not yourself, afraid, or overwhelmed to name a few.  I want to challenge you, during this unexpected season, to make the most of your time of “waiting.”  Waiting for things to change and doors to open. Good things can happen while we wait!

We have all been granted a GIANT PAUSE… to reexamine our priorities, make the necessary adjustments needed, and possibly attempt to simplify our lives. 

This kind of opportunity is rare and it doesn’t come around every day.  If you take advantage of it, it can be life changing!  We have all been given a chance to alter the course of our lives and make a fresh start.  What needs to change?  What do I need to stop doing or start doing?  What should I  focus my attention on?  What matters most?  

What COULD happen if we took time to assess our lives and pray about it?  Are we where we know we should be?  Are we doing what God has called us to do?  If not, this is a great time to make some changes.

These uncertain times (living with so many “unknowns” that change by the day) can unfortunately trigger unhealthy emotions to rise up within us.  When unchecked, they can lead to toxic thoughts, reactions, and behavior.  Processing these emotions and surrendering them to God is key to experiencing His peace that passes all understanding in the midst of these crazy days.  I want to share with you some tools that will hopefully help guide you, as you endeavor to push forward with God’s help during these difficult times.

How can I manage my time & emotions...

#1 TAKE TIME TO FOCUS ON GOD DAILY

Start your day with God.  Before you do anything else each day, spend time with God. Share your heart with Him.  How are you feeling?  What are you worried about?  Who do you know that needs a touch from God today?  Tell Him… and then take time to LISTEN.  Listen to His heart. God speaks all the time, we just don’t always take time to listen.

Then after that, spend time in His word… the Bible.  The Bible is alive, active, powerful, and life changing!  It’s food for our spirits and a light that guides our steps.  When we read it, supernatural things happen!  If you have trouble being faithful to read your Bible, I encourage you to follow a Bible plan.  They have tons to choose from on the Youversion Bible app. (https://www.youversion.com/the-bible-app/).  You can even do this with a group of friends or family.  This option gives you the opportunity to have everyone share what stood out to them from what they read.  It’s very encouraging and a great way to keep accountable to reading daily.  

Another thing I would suggest you do during the day is spend time listening to worship music… you know, those songs you hear at church. I have noticed that when I play that kind of music (at home in the background throughout my day) that it feels more PEACEFUL in my house and inside my heart.  

The last thing I want to encourage you to do, when it comes to focusing your heart on God, is to write down a scripture each day. Choose a scripture that brings you peace and encourages you.  Find a special place to post them where they will be seen often.  This will help you focus your heart more on God when you are feeling anxious.  Here are a few of my favorites…Psalm 112:7, Psalm 62:1, Psalm 46:10, I Peter 5:7, Phil. 4:6-7, Matt. 6:34, Phil. 4:13, Rom. 8:28

#2 GET RID OF STINKING THINKING

Instead of thinking... “I’m stuck inside”, focus on the fact that... Now you have time to give more attention to your relationship with God, those closest to you, and those postponed needs of your home.

Whether you are working from home, doing school work, or managing your household, good things can come out of this frustrating season... if you change your perspective! 

Choosing to do one productive thing each day can lead to a more positive attitude. Set your sights on long-avoided tasks, reorganize, or create something you’ve always wanted to make.  Plan special family nights.  Play games, watch movies, and take walks. Get outside together and build memories that will last a lifetime!  Approaching this time with a mindset of feeling trapped or stuck will only stress you out more. This is your chance to slow down and focus on what is truly important.

When your family looks back on this season of their lives, what do you want them to remember about your time together?

  

#3 STAY CLOSE TO YOUR NORMAL ROUTINE

Try to maintain some semblance of structure from the pre-quarantine days. For those individuals with children, sticking to a routine might be easier for you with managing their school days.  However, for those that work from home, it could be very tempting to become lethargic and unmotivated.  This can open the door to negative thinking. A suggestion would be to wake up and go to bed around the same time each day.  Eat meals, shower, adapt your exercise regimen, and get out of those PJ’s. Do laundry on the same day as usual and continue to do the necessary household chores. Sticking to your normal routine will help keep you active and make it less likely for you to spiral into unhealthy behavior.  Not to mention, this will also help you be ready for when you are able to return to your previous commitments.

#4 AVOID OBSESSING OVER ENDLESS CORONAVIRUS COVERAGE

Freeing up your day from work or social obligations gives you plenty of time to obsess, and if you have a tendency to consult Google for every itch and sneeze, you may be over-researching the pandemic as well. Choosing only certain credible websites (who.int or cdc.gov is a good start) for a limited amount of time each day (perhaps two chunks of 30 minutes each) will be in your best interest during this time.

#5 KEEP A TIDY HOME

With all the uncertainty happening all around us (outside of our homes), keeping the inside organized, predictable, and clean can bring a sense of calm to the crazy. Setting up mental zones for daily activities can be helpful to organize your day. For example, try not to eat in bed or work on the sofa (just as before), eat at the kitchen table and work at your desk. Loosening these boundaries just muddles your routine and can make the day feel very long. Additionally, a cluttered home can cause you to feel uneasy and claustrophobic in your own surroundings. Keeping your home tidy inside and out can relieve stress and bring a calm to your heart.

#6 START A NEW QUARANTINE RITUAL

With your newfound time, why not plan something special during these quarantined days?  You could start a daily journal to jot down thoughts and feelings to reflect on later. Or you could take a walk every day at 4 pm. Plan special video calls with your friends, family, or church group each week.  Or maybe you could start a weekly game night or fun competition. Having something special planned during this time will help you look forward to each new day.

#7 GET HELP IF YOUR ANXIETY BECOMES UNMANAGEABLE

Telehealth is an option when you need to talk to a professional.

Many licensed therapists are offering options over HIPAA-compliant video chat platforms. One such company I highly recommend is Pendleton Counseling Services.  They offer excellent quality counseling and addiction help. They just opened a new office and are currently taking appointments online.  Please see the additional resources listed below for details and assistance.  If your anxiety is reaching proportions that are unmanageable without professional assistance, please reach out for help.

We are in this together friend!  YOU are not alone! You got this!!!

Living to leave a legacy,

Julie


RESOURCES FOR ANXIETY & ADDICTION

Pendleton Counseling Services 

(765) 221-9495

Kelly Ricer, LCSW 

Lindsey Lawrence, LCSW, LCAC
https://www.pendletoncounselingservices.com/

Reclaimed Counseling

(317) 537-7906

(They offer individual, couples, and family counseling)
http://reclaimedcounseling.evrconnect.com/

National Treatment Centers

Call 1-866-745-2140 for IMMEDIATE treatment assistance. 

24/7, 365 days (confidential)

Find a treatment center near you on the site.

https://www.treatment-centers.net/

Aspire Indiana

24 HOUR CRISIS: 1-800-560-4038

Make an appointment: 1-317-574-1254

Division of Mental Health & Addiction: 1-800-901-1133

(Sliding scale fees available)

https://www.aspireindiana.org/